Monday, May 02, 2005

Mary Ann...

Well well well I had a pleasant surprise from Mary-Ann. An ex of mine. She called me at around 12, wondered if I was game enough to go for a drink or two. Do I hear a hell yeah? So, I brought her to The Lazy Lizard Pub at Holland Village. It’s a cozy place, good ambience, great drinks and well if you happen to have good company, its da best place around.

A bit about MA. She is officially my first ever gf. Yup, when I was in Primary 6, say 12 years old. I met her on a trip to Australia, Melbourne ironically. The fact that I wooed her in front of my parents showed that my parents didn’t have confidence in me. Well, diggg it suckers!! It was strange and very sweet actually. I mean we were after all very young. She was 10. For the record, also the first and only gf younger than me. Hahaha…

Anyway, she’s attached now. Happily attached. I managed to grab her some gerberas from a 24-hour florist near my place. I figured out it’d be weird if I didn’t get her anything. I hadn’t seen her for 5-6 years. But we’ve kept in touch, email and stuff. So I didn’t know what to expect. Things can change a lot in 6 years. She turned out to be this slim, gorgeous, wonderful olive-skinned girl. No need for extra makeup, just eye shadow, a black halter-neck and a spiffy pair of jeans. What a pleasant surprise!!!!! I mean, she’s pretty I know, but I never would have expected something so nice. You know what I mean… Well, I made it a point not to gawk and stand there open-jawed. So I just gave her the gerbs and a big smile and acted like she wasn’t no big deal. (Sorry Ann, if you read this, you can laugh your head off, I don’t care!)

Catching up is always fun. She still remembers how when we were in Sydney, I lifted her up to see something through the telescope and then I couldn’t lift her baby sister 5 minutes later. I put this down to having my first adrenaline rush. Btw, since then, I’ve not been able to do anything superhuman so far. MA certainly did seem happy when I told her that. I told her about the ladies who’ve been in an out of my life, and how I become more cynical as time passes. Its no longer okay to be a hot girl and I’ll sacrifice everything. I’m looking for sincere companionship, though not actively. MA reckons that if I do get somebody, it’ll be someone who will be in Australia with me. But she doesn’t doubt my devotion once I’m in the game. MA also agrees I don’t have much time for girls anyway. Like everyone else, she finds me weird for liking older girls. But I’m used to that now. I’ve improved à 9 years to just 2 months for the past one. Hmmmph!

She asked me what would happen if we had not been so young when we met. I told her that if that was the case, she wouldn’t even cast an eye on a dumb ass like me. Which is true. Being realistic is not the same as low self esteem. Don’t jump on me. She did admit that at times she missed me and if circumstances hadn’t been such, we might have been able to make it as a couple. But hello? We were in primary school then? I didn’t miss her, that’s for sure.

She told me how she’s been through hell with a lot of guys. Some didn’t keep commitments, others 2-timed and another only wanted sex. Typical guy behavior, I hate it that 95% of guys are bastards and the good ones (like me…heh) are victimized and generalized. But I told her she has come out a much stronger person and that’s reflected in her character. I admire her strength and her ability to bounce back. Some girls are left in the pit and stay in the pit and that sucks. After listening to her, I told her I wished I was there for her when she needed help. Its just that, because we talk rather infrequently, she doesn’t get the chance to tell me a lot of things. She must have appreciated that cos she teared for a while after that.

I’m happy that she’s with a great guy now. I kind of know him, not personally, but through my other connections. He seems pretty decent and while not the best looking, a heart of gold is all it took to capture her’s. (That’s how guys like me stand a chance, I told her). She gave me a watery smile. Cute.

As it was getting late, I walked her home the good old traditional way. A pleasant walk in the coolness of the night with someone I’ve grown to enjoy being with in a couple of hours. I finally told her she’s beautiful both inside and outside and if she had a twin, to let me know. Actually about the beautiful part, I think she already knew. Haha…Another hug at the doorstep and a peck on the cheek (from her to me) ended a great night.

A beautiful moment I just had to record somewhere before I hit the sack. Thanks for the memories…..

Enlighten me: Why is it guys can’t stay faithful, even if they have the most beautiful girl on the planet???

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Dr Jon, great entry you have there i must add. I think you must have enjoyed yourself. This is perhaps one part of you that i have not seen- the sentimental and kind side (you're pretty evil sometimes man) alright back to the main point.

---> Enlighten me: Why is it guys can’t stay faithful, even if they have the most beautiful girl on the planet???

According to my colleagues at work, they told me that there is this certain perception that 'grass is greener over the otherside' it is most unforunate for this to occur in guys but guys (or boys in this case) don't know when to stop and love their girlfriends. don't get me wrong on that part but a little fun at the end of everything is good, but knowing how to draw the line is extremely important. Guys/ boys don't really know how to draw the line and that's why REAL MEN like you and me are suffering. Good and kind ladies are gone (or hurt) and they are not interested in a relationship.

Anyway, that's a two cents worth from me. (btw, i am beginning to understand older ladies than the younger ones. it's rather difficult to get to know them better, somehow)

Take care bro!

gilliangel said...

Hmm..that's prolly one of the oldest questions known to mankind -2nd only to : What do girls really want?!

Id love to know the answer to that too.

But my take on it is that - well, ever read the book 'Wild At Heart' by John Eldredge? It talks about how men are always in search of an adventure; that at the very core of their soul, they were made to be in search of that 'adrenalin' rush so to speak.

Some men (or well, boys rather) feel as though they always need to prove their 'manhood'. To go in a quest to see how many princesses' heart they can win.It's like a trophy cabinet for some.

And until they wake up one morning and suddenly realise that that wont get them through life, the girls they meet are well, to put it bluntly - rather doomed.

And I totally agree with Sam; that REAL MEN like you and him will suffer. Ladies who have been burnt will tend to stay away from the fire for awhile, or even if they do get close...they do so extra cautiously.

just a little ramble on my part.

Jon Lai said...

hmm... gill thanks for thinking me and sam are REAL men. hehe... do u really have such a good impression of us?? :)

i must admit i used to think the trophy cabinet was cool but someone knocked me to my senses last year. She knows who she is. So yeah, it was very difficult. because these trophies stay with you for life. You can't throw them away, but if you don't show them, you're lying as well... i guess the one who got myself into all this shit is none other than myself.

on the other hand, i don't blame the ladies who stay away. Cos who likes a guy who plays around anyway??? I guess i just need someone either like me, or someone mature enough to understand this is my life and i screwed up in the past, but that doesn't mean i'll do so in the future.

oh well... its fortunate i don't have much time for girls right now anyway... i'll proly die of stress.

ding said...

jon...dingo boy here...all i can say is..WHOA..you really didnt come across as someone who was so articulate with a keyboard..aniwae..in all seriousness...u really are a sweet boy..to e girls for sure..haha..im joking..all in all i wanted to say..it was a wickedly written piece of blog...kudos..hell i dont even know wat kudos mean...God belss dude