If its 39 degrees outside, would you hold her hand?

As painfully erratic as Melbourne’s weather is, change is often considered necessary for survival. Personally, this semester has been rather unlike what I’d define a “normal” and “typical” semester. I’ve spent much time reflecting on the past semester, and concluded that it has been typically hectic. However, the main difference has been lack of “me” time and even less “her” time.

Nonetheless, even if the semester had been better planned time-wise, I’m not sure I would have spent anymore “her” time then I did. You see, the fulfilling part of this semester was its people oriented-ness, in contrast to a person oriented one. I spent far less time watching TV, staying at home and playing games than meeting people (friends and strangers) over coffee or dinner. If interaction is indeed the basis of all relationships, then I did myself no harm.

I enjoyed the times in the studio with dy, mel, eu and April. They were immensely rewarding in that I found other sources of welcome spiritual encouragement from places other than OCF. Speaking of which, I learnt so much more about certain individuals in OCF. Beautiful and engaging late night conversations are my favourite. These can only take place where there are words to be said otherwise either party will very quickly relieve themself from such an awkward situation.

I recall being bitterly disappointed on Thanksgiving, because parting ways is never an easy thing. Yes, I got emotional and no, I’m not a robot. I’m not actually sure why some people don’t think I’m human. Cold and callous me? Possibly.

This semester I’ve become deeply convicted that beauty is only skin deep. However, I hasten to add that it (beauty) is painfully important. On the other hand, spending time (lots and lots and lots of) with someone might make them appeal to you more than before. Before this, I never imagined myself saying something like this, superficial and insincere as I tend to be. Nevertheless, I’d still much prefer the “initial attraction” approach to the “acquired taste” approach. Some of you will differ I’m sure.

According to Wan Wan, I’ve high standards as far as women are concerned. Truth be told, I’ve shut off potential relationships for the past 2 years, not due to arrogance, but only because there is no one who can possibly fit the mould I’ve cast mentally. Despite being troubled at the time when she said it, I guess it is somewhat true – plus the fact we both proved it (which was good fun!). I will not change myself in a hurry because selfish as it sounds, I believe in the stringent measures that ensure quality. (I’ve also previously mentioned I need to start getting serious as far as relationships are concerned). I loathe the stereotypical sickly-sweet Christian male. I call him the “devoted dog” – the comfortable, safe men, the loyal escorts, the doormats, those who continue to give and give and love and love no matter how standoffish the girl. I hope I will never have to demean myself to that extent. Perseverance is overrated – again, some will differ in opinion. Do share though, even if I might not care about your opinion.

My girlfriend will be my equal.
My lover.
My friend.
My enemy.

But no, I would NOT hold her hand if its 39 degrees outside. Sorry.