Fine

(The nurse is typing this out for me, I’m too weak)

Here’s my aptly coloured national day present to the world. I have more images but I wouldn’t want to freak everyone out on this ‘joyous’ occasion.

If I die today, it will be good. I will be a martyr who goes down in a blaze of red and white. The pain is unbearable. I shall not go through it any longer. Don’t fucking cry, I’m sick of all the tears shed. Just go home and leave me alone.

I have drawn out my will. I not a rich man, my dad is. However, I do have 3 bank accounts.

1. The account with the most cash will go to mei who I hope will do medicine in Oxford. You can lead a more comfortable life there and buy many many bags of garlic if you have to. It’s only 3 pounds a bag.

2. 20 of my closest and dearest friends will share the next account. There is a rather substantial amount, so spend this cash wisely. Go buy cigarettes/drugs with this and I will haunt you forever. The list of friends can be found in C:\Documents and Settings\Administrator\My Documents\Will\Friends of my laptop.

3. The last account will go to the church. They need a new refrigerator and better plastic utensils that don’t break.

My football figures and cards that I have collected will go to the girl I love and still love. I have never gotten over her. Do not belittle these figures, they are worth a small fortune in the region on 20k. All the years of hardship and hunting them down, I give to her. Her name can be found in C:\Documents and Settings\Administrator\My Documents\Will\The_One.

Mr. Spalletti, your design for your residence is in C:\Documents and Settings\Administrator\My Documents\Work\BQ01. There are Photoshop boards and a 3d Studio Max presentation. I won’t be there for Wednesday’s meeting, I apologise.

Jie, it’s not your fault this happened. I love you.

Mum and Dad, I love you. Sorry, your dear boy tried so hard and you know that. Sorry for the hardship over the years, but despite all the rough actions and crude words, you’re the best parents in the world.

To my friends, I love each and every one of you. I do not wish anybody see me in this state so don’t come and for goodness sake, don’t call my parents and ask me how I am. But let you know that I spent the last few days fighting and even though I laughed on the phone, it was all a front.

“Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in Heaven”. Matthew 5v16