Abandon all Defences

Just been out with relatives today for buffet at Brios. Okay, they aren’t bad people at all. Actually, they’re very good. I was sorry I missed out on good fellowship yesterday. Now they’re leaving on Monday morning and I’m not too happy with myself. Damn! I just don’t get things right do I?

It has occurred to me that we (our family) aren’t exactly close knit to our cousins/nieces/aunties and what not. When papa and mummy eventually leave for paradise, will we continue to meet up or not? I don’t know, it’s so strange sometimes. What if they get married and such, we surely would be invited to attend isn’t? It can really be a chore to go back to KL for Christmas every year. It’s usually a time to wear phony smiles and get aching jaws for our efforts after that. Well, it used to be. But now that I’ve got so many friends, I’m eager to go there. Not so my sisters though. I don’t blame them. KL is after all hot, sticky and mosquitoey. We (cousins and us) were just not brought up together. We didn’t play together and have no prior history, which explains the coldness. As we mature though, family does become more important and I feel so ashamed of myself for absconding yesterday. My cousin actually brought me stuff from Japan and as for myself, I’ve got nothing to give. There’s no excuse. I’m a bastard. A bloddy bastard.

I’m still stuffed with work. Everyone’s getting on me back (me included). It’s tough, but that’s life. Not doing the best you can do, but doing the best you can do IN THE LIMITED TIME YOU HAVE. That’s the difference. We have deadlines to meet, whether or not you’ve done something to the best of capability, it doesn’t matter. This is why I reiterate that in whatever you do, be INTENSE. Intensity with integrity, remember?

GZ called me just now. An old flame. 2 years ago to be exact. I miss her. I miss her character. That lady was awesome! Someone who could challenge me. She was ruthless. Too ruthless, which explains why we didn’t work out. Nevertheless, she pushed me to the limit and over eventually. Still, we had our wonderful times and good memories will supersede all. Not to mention, she was rather attractive and sexy at the same time. AND she was pretty. Haha… Rare, rare, rare!!!!!!!! Get my point? We will meet tomorrow night at her desired place. Our secret little hideout. I’m looking forward to nostalgia.

Night time sharpens, heightens each sensation
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination
Silently the senses abandon their defences.

Slowly, gently night unfurls its splendour.
Grasp it, sense it, tremulous and tender.
Turn your face away from the garish light of day,
turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light
and listen to the music of the night.

Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams!
Purge your thoughts of the life you knew before!
Close your eyes, let your spirit start to soar!
And you'll live as you've never lived before.